I am back๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ˜‰

So the final semester is halfway over and we are not sure how much still have to study because we can’t remember what we have already read๐Ÿ˜‚..
We are working on an exhibition where we have made some stuff and also designed a cute little cafe.. can’t disclose the details right now๐Ÿ˜‰.. But i will post pictures soon.. ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜œ
God.. i miss writing to all of you guys.. poor little me..can’t make enough time for the things i love๐Ÿ˜•๐Ÿ˜ก
Anywayyyyyy… I will be back with the pictures soon.. i hope you guys missed me๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜›..
See you all soon๐Ÿ˜š

An insomniac

She is an insomniac..
both her dreams and pain turned her into this(mostly her pain).. she tosses and turns while others sleep.. the only warmth she knows now are your arms.. but unfortunately she doesn’t even have you anymore.. you are too busy chasing your dreams that her pain isn’t visible to you.. she misses you.. needs you.. her heart aches for you but as painful as it is.. you hardly ever think about her.. she is strong as a rock in front of the world but as fragile as a feather when she lets down her walls in front of you.. She loved you..she still does but now she feels like a fool everytime she picks up her phone and checks for your messages..  What changed?.. the love you two had? or your priorities?

I look at you

Lost you in february.. still living the moment everyday and dying again and again.. Life goes on but my happiness still stuck in the moment when i saw you smile for the last time..ย  People tell me it will be okay.. it happens.. there isn’t anything i could have done to save you..ย  they maybe right but what really hurts is the pain you had to go through.. there are a thousand things i want to say to you.. but there aren’t enough words to tell you how much i miss you and how much i pray that i get to see you again.. I love you Mom.. rest in peace..

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the night’s so long
‘Cause there is no guarantee that this life is easy
Yeah, when my world is falling apart When there’s no light to break up the dark that’s when I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I can’t find my way home anymore That’s when I, I look at you

When I look at you, I see forgiveness I see the truth
You love me for who I am like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know I’m not alone
Yeah, when my world is falling apart When there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I, I look at you

When the waves Are flooding the shore and I can’t find my way home anymore That’s when I, I look at you
You appear just like a dream to me Just like Kaleidoscope colors that cover me,
all I need every breath that I breathe Don’t you know you’re beautiful?
Yeah, yeah, yeah
When the waves are flooding the shore and I can’t find my way home anymore That’s when I,
I look at you I look at you

You appear just like a dream To me

A beautiful song by Miley Cyrus.. this always reminds me of you mom.. everytime i look at your photograph or think about you i know i am not alone..i know you’ve got my back.. i know i have you..

Alive??

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We all know we gotta keep breathing through whatever happens.. there are bad days when we feel like ending the struggle.. giving into the pain..but we are stronger than the pain..so we survive.. we live one more day.. but is that it? Is keep breathing enough? Don’t we know that keep breathing and being alive are two different things.. I think we know but we aren’t brave enough to step out of our comfort zone. We feel safe within the walls we have build around ourselves.. we don’t try anything new. no adventures. nothing new.. because we are afraid of anything new.. we are too busy staying inside a shell that we forget about the beauty there is out there in the world..  It is upto us what we want out of life.. keep breathing or being Alive..